You who I cherished the most — but you left
my heart cries for the world. my heart cries for you. my heart cries for everything, except that you won’t stop it from crying.
maybe i did fall too hard. i didn’t thought that you won’t keep holding my hands until the end like what you promised me at the first place. i won over my trust issues and lied my body upon your chest but you still left. you left — leaving trails of bittersweetness as you stained my heart.
out of all people, i never knew it was going to be you. i never thought it was going to be you who will leave me at worst. i never thought that you are now nothing, but a stranger with those secrets of mine.
i am now broken and i have no one to turn to. you once said that you will be by my side for long but the only thing i see is a big, big wall that you built between us. you really made a huge space between right after you opened the fragility of mine.
i was afraid to write about you because i won’t have the ability to erase the thought that one day you will be as far as you already are from me and i won’t be going to be able to stop writing about you. and for fuck’s sake, i was right.
i cherished you — god fuck i even still cherish you until now. but you make me feel like i am indeed being forgotten and it is the worst thing to feel. will you really not show up and fulfil your promises?